I knew it would come. This time when I would need a real channel, a craft, for this creative energy to move through. This indescribable impulse, an energy with colors and sounds and emotions and sensations all bound together, wanting to be something, to play.

I do it in my work with others. I think that’s why it works so well. I cannot seem to adhere to any guru’s template, though I draw from them all in the background.

I’ve done it in my “business”. I could not do it the way others said I had to in order to be successful. My website is not shiny and tech-y. Whatever I’m doing is working enough. I don’t need to make it more efficient or markety or entertainy. Because I don’t want to.

I do it when I write. IT just writes.

Now I want to create even more. But I still have to develop other crafts besides “therapist”. Not get too invested in them being perfected, or as having to do it all myself. If others are needed to help the channel be what is needed for the energy to move through, then I want to be open to that. Geesh is that stupid patriarchal lone wolf thing really a sticky internalized image feeling thing! Sometimes I do want to be alone, undistracted, creating. And sometimes I want to do it with someone (even though I don’t really know what that is or looks like, but thanks, trauma healing! for making it even a thought at all).

I hope you will create too. If you cannot, I hope you will chip away at whatever is preventing you. Or not. Totally your choice. I’m biased. Personally, I hope you will create, too.

I hope you will make something imperfect, uniquely you, and do it now. Right now.

I’m going to go make sounds on a guitar now for 5 minutes.

I can’t wait to see what you make!